confidence is everything

Yooooo. Today I'm using this post to blab about my newest and, as of now, my biggest life realization yet. So often, I find myself in social situations being a complete outcast. Hahaha Yeah, guys I'm a total LOSER and I'm so beyond aware of it! Seriously though. Since Jr. High, meeting new people and being confident around others has been my biggest struggle and for so long I haven't been able to figure out why. Either I'm completely silent at a party or I'm killing myself trying to put together the right words to express what I have to say. I've always felt ashamed and embarrassed about, what I used to call "my lack of personality", until now. No. I do NOT lack personality (cause I can be damn funny sometimes) , I have lacked CONFIDENCE. It seemed as if everyone else in this world had it but me. And I can't even begin to describe how awful of a feeling that was. Whether it was being the quiet wallflower at a party or body dysmorphia and the unreeling fear of having my picture taken or worrying about people making fun of my blog (hehe) or feeling like my abilities in anything I did were simply just not up to par, it sucked. It sucked SO bad but it was ALL in my head. The only thing holding me back from achieving anything was ME. 

This year I've committed to change. I have vowed to have confidence in all that I do (I emphasize the "ALL that I do"). Your destiny is in your hands. No one is going to make your dreams come true, or change your attitude for the better, it's completely on you to make things happen. I mean, yeah, I'll probably still be the "woman of few words" at parties but at least I won't feel bad about it anymore, right? ;) We've all heard the quote, "you choose to be happy". Well YEAH! The first step to being happy is being ok with yourself and liking the person you are.  J. Cole just released a new album (and my boyfriend is totally going to make fun of me/ love me for using this because he LOVES J. Cole) but there is a line he uses that I've taken to heart. He says, "No such thing as a life that's better than yours". I have seriously never heard anything more true. Everyone has worth, including YOU. 

There's my tangent for the day. Have a Glorious Tuesday:) There is so much amazing music to be heard, art to be seen and people to love so I hope you take today to include a couple of those things.

Adios!

-sam

PS my entire outfit is from Free People lol.